Tuesday, September 22

Happy Autumnal Equinox!

I think it was returned to the library, but the other day I read the beginning of A Nation of Farmers and it seemed really interesting. What I loved though, was the introduction. I am going to refrain from typing it all here, but what I will quote the full first paragraph.... But first, what I like the best is the way that "The Big Lie" is something very specific in this text, but most of the discussion could be discussing any number of "Big Lies" in our society.

"From the first, let us dispense with the Big Lie. You know the one we refer to: the eternally repeated claim that we cannot make real and deep and radical change in our way of living, even if it is the right thing to do. The Big Lie narrows both our perspective and our perception of our alternatives, while making our failures seem natural and inevitable. The Big Lie claims that we are cowards, that we are weak, that we are no longer the inheritors of our revolutionary past and that we lack moral integrity. It is a slander, and yet we believe it. And until we stop believing it, we cannot lift our hands, our voices or our hoes and get on with the work of change."

It continues on, expounding a bit, but that first paragraph is just awesome. I also realize, as I bring this quote in, part of my old issues with putting quotes into papers--it is connected to other thoughts I've been having lately. But I have always had good reading comprehension and so I never understood why I had to explain the quote because it just said what needed to be said for itself--or so I thought. Since then, of course, I have realized the value of restating and investigating alternative words to get at the deeper points or to illustrate different meanings for different readers.

Returning to the passage, what I like about it is how it emphasizes that not only is our view of reality that is skewed by the Lie, but our view of what is possible. The Lie keeps us complacent about our world so we don't shake the standing power structure. We don't believe we can change--so we don't try too hard; we don't expect too much. We believe we are less than we are because it is easier. And since, as a species, we tend to dislike being made to change so our lives become harder....

Friday, September 11

Two Books, One Night

Absolutely, Positively Not... by David Larochelle
and
Rainbow Boys by Alex Sanchez

The Larochelle's book is very light-hearted. Steven is a sophomore in high school, struggling to get his driver's license, and determined to prove that he is absolutely, positively not gay. It doesn't quite work out the way he planned. Steven takes on some of the most intimate issues there are: identity, sexuality, family, and friendships, but he book never loses its wit.

Sanchez's book is more serious; the three boys are seniors in high school. I think I like this one more because of its complexity. This book deals with the ugly side of ignorance and homophobia as well as the tangled heartstrings of complicated relationships and family issues. I like how gayness/the reactions people have to it wasn't the only issue in the book. It made it much more realistic and heart-wrenching because being secretive about your identity is the straw on the camels back and something no one should have to do.


Saturday, September 5

party of one

party of one: the loners' manifesto

by: anneli rufus




Something in this business makes sense.

Though it highlights how I feel as though I contain a little bit of everything within me.

I have felt a little lost because I haven't been able to confidently determine my exact level of need for others.

I am no longer shy. But I am often very private.

I know how to make friends. I get along with most people. I am very easy-going.

But I am rarely satisfied. I always need to be able to get away.

At the same time I also need connections. Sometimes I just need someone to talk to--to hold--to simply be with.

It feels sort of like being bisexual; neither gay nor straight while sharing qualities with both. I am neither a loner nor a nonloner but pieces of both.

It makes sense with my clothes, with my behavior, with my constantly changing being...

Does everyone feel this dynamic?